2020-09-22 – Empty Bottle

if caring is torment,
it’s no moreso
than not,

and daring can be
harrowing but
not for us
robots,

though i’ve neither will
nor the discipline to
leave childproof
caps alone,

++++

and my nerve endings
are too numbed
down now,

to care that you
now know.

Drowsy Medman
igram: https://www.instagram.com/gèèrumpygorman/?hl=

image adapted from art by Levi Hastings found at –https://www.thestranger.com/features/2018/12/19/37093776/this-drug-could-change-alcohol-addiction-treatment-forever

..so now you know… may i go?

2020-09-17 – Fought the Knot

fought the knot but
never got it
right,

rope over nope, loops
unravel and
kink,

lips pucker
airtight,

deepening the tint of ink
in veins spreading
viral over my
eyes,

i tried, was denied,
so in clown
makeup

i cried,

though i’m pleased
to report that
damn shoe
got tied,

++++

but i wasn’t waved on
to grade 1 till each
eye socket
dried,

so i began swallowing
tears in knots with
each breath,

until i learned a
poorly tied
shoe,

wasn’t an offense
punishable
by death,

++++

just a pressure
that many
kids felt

when out
came the belt.

+++

and to this day, when i catch a
kid fumbling to lace up
their own shoe,

i have to bite down
on the urge to
offer them
glue
,

or a velcro pair
of steel toe
boots.

Fumbly Thumbsman
igram: 
https://www.instagram.com/grumpygorman/?hl=

image by Fabian Debora at – https://imagejournal.org/journal/issue-71/fabian-debora-issue-71/

..ok, time to sever these roots.

2020-08-31 – The Cloud Between My Knees

i was that crumb in school
who tried too hard
at the wrong
things

and never believed
he was built tough
enough for real
things like

feelings,

i was that kid accused
of having head in
clouds all the
time inside,

only if someone had
taken a caring turn to
see it’s ever been
between my
knees.

++++

though i can raise it to
aim it where i
please.

Grumpy Gorman
igram: 
https://www.instagram.com/grumpygorman/?hl=en

image adapted from artwork at – https://www.amazon.in/Mad-Masters-Minimalist-Painting-Textured/dp/B07JW6LB4D

Thank you, especially for this read.